Mostly out of the woods.

I finished the Big Scary Paper of Doom. I feel... neutral about it. I gave it my best go, and now it's out of my hands so there's no point worrying about whether I totally missed the prof's boat on it or something. I feel a lot more confident about the exam for the course, which is on Monday at OH GOD WHY o'clock. And tonight I finished a much lighter paper and handed in my media journal for another class (my lower level class). Feel more confident about that one, but it's a self-reflective paper and those always put me on edge. (Wait, you mean I'm ALLOWED to talk about myself? And use personal pronouns? I... I'm feeling woozy...)

One more paper on the role of theatre/arts in society, which I'm going to devote most of the next couple of days to. This is also a reflective paper, but not quite so much of a PERSONAL one - I'm going to take a somewhat journalistic approach to it, I think. This all feels VERY weird after the super-academic papers that made up most of my semester.

I've been thinking about grad school lately, and I have decided two things for sure:

1) I am definitely going to do it.
2) I am definitely going to take a year off before I do.

I have really enjoyed my undergraduate studies for the most part, but I am starting to feel a little burnt out and I think taking a year to work and pay down^* my debt would do wonders for my psyche. (It'd also make researching potential schools MUCH less stressful than trying to do it in the middle of the semester.) There are a lot of things that I want to do - work on some writing projects, take voice lessons and do general vocal work, play the violin again, work more extensively with the theatre company - and while I DO like being busy, I find full-time school to be much more of a drain than full-time work.

And who knows, maybe I can put aside a bit of my hard-earned dough and nip down to Oz for a visit. Now that I have people there whose couches I can crash on I might be able to afford it!



* I might actually be able to pay it off, if I play my cards right. Read: keep living with the 'rents. Though I would LOVE to have a place of my own again.

Silly shuffle poem meme stolen from keltickefiwolf and elsewher

Put your MP3 player on shuffle, and write down the first line of thefirst twenty songs. Post the poem that results. The first line of the twenty-first is the title.

Every Single Day I Walk Down the Street

I went down to the crossroads
Oh yeah, what we're livin' in - let me tell ya
When you feel so close to some resolve
Sad voices, they're callin'
Levon wears his war wound like a crown

Hey - I'll be there whenever you call
Tired of injustice, tired of the schemes
The sea it swells like a sore head
You can reach, but you can't grab it
Might as well go for a soda

Hey - I'm feeling tired
So I'm all surrounded
Come as you are, as you were
We're only making plans for Nigel
How long before I get in?

Give me a ticket for an aeroplane
I recall the time they found those fossilized mosquitoes
Free the dream within
You wanted this, so sad to see
Spiral - torn from the torn